A Sheep Inside a Wolf's Fur

CHILDHOOD - The only time where you can run down the streets with no trouble and regrets. The time to be carefree. I can tell many things about what it's like to be a child but I can't tell you what it really feels. I have my own version of being a child but nevertheless, I literally didn't spend my childhood the way a child would use to spend theirs.

I can't say I have lived my childhood life to its fullest. For me, I'm an entirely different person. I'm not a nerd or a weirdo. I can generally fit in, I guess? There's just something holding me back from the others.

When I was a child I love to mingle with the elders since my parents are busy with their jobs. As a child, gallivanting is one of the things you really can't resist even though your parents are prohibiting such habit. As a result, well what would you expect?? When I reached Grade 3, wandering the streets escaped my innocent head as I started to stay at home. Many people would tell me that I am too mature for my age, they'll always say that children in my age would go off the streets.

After learning my lessons not to wander off the streets, I got used in spending my time at home without even doing anything. Up to this day, my parents would scold  me for not going out of our house 24/7 but what can I do? There was even a time when I went out of our house to buy something then the saleslady asked me if where have I been because she seldom sees me going out of the streets. I have practiced going out on the streets only if  I have some important matters to attend.

Literally, people would tend to avoid me simply because they thought  I was very serious and uptight. They would often see me as a not-so-jolly-profound spoiled brat. But once they'll talk to me, at that very moment they will surely eat their own words. I often get these confessions from the people close to me. Never judge a person by your first impression because sometimes what's real is something that's invisible to the eye.

Maybe I did not enjoy my childhood days into pieces yet I know I can still live a good life. I may receive many discrimination yet I felt blessed. I may not have many friends but at least I have one. As what I have reflected from my friends, life may seem unfair but life loves those people who bounce back from adversity and dares to live it.

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